Things I Hate

I hate driving in the snow. I used to be fine with it, embracing every swerve, skid, and loss of traction delight. But that was back in high school before I suppose I fully developed a sense of mortality. Now I hate it. I clutch the wheel and grit my teeth praying to God that I make it. The worst was the other night when I drove home in a blizzard and the roads weren't properly salted, ploughed, etc. I almost swerved into a ditch turning onto the street that leads to my street. It was awful. I don't like driving in general, so snow makes it even worse. Also, it's been in the teens here, aka like -20 celcius. So pleasant! England is going to seem warm in comparison.

Now I get to go research an essay that I don't know how I'm going to write. Research today, write tomorrow, hopefully be half done by the time I leave to make my English return on FRIDAY.

This is absolutely disgusting.

My New Favorite Broadway Showtune

"Being Alive" from Stephen Sondheim's Company. AMAZING especially around 1:52 when he lets it all out. Boyfriend can sing. I'm going to start singing this to random men. Not really. But, I will start belting it out alone in my room and in my mind while walking. Such a this is why I'm single song!

FML of the Day

I woke up this morning feeling pretty normal in size. I weighed myself, it was fine. And all day I was feeling good. UNTIL, I tried to put on my previously loose jeans. It was a real crushing moment. I've been wearing sweatpants all break so I had no idea! I guess that's what two weeks of food and literally no minor form of exercise does to you. Fun!

This Is Why I'm Single

While watching Star Trek (the 2009 film) for the 4th time I thought up an elaborate final scene for the next film involving a space ship flying over the fields of France (I haven't worked out why) and a young boy looking up with wonder. Then his mother comes out and shouts- "Jean-Luc!" and the screen fades to black. Oh. My. God. If that doesn't explain why I'm single, I don't know what does (okay, I do).

Happy 2010- My New Years Resolutions

The Rochester Skyline last night via the Democrat and Chronicle

My Resolutions:

-Be less crazy/deranged/obsessive/delusional

-Lost 10 pounds (ugh)

-Learn to knit something besides a scarf

-Find a part time job in London

-Find a real job anywhere

-Stay up past 2 at least once a month (ugh so hard!)

-Complete Grad School with an acceptable grade

Meh those are enough. Hopefully they're acheivable. Well, the first two probably aren't.

Beautiful Poem for the New Year

Variations on the Word Sleep

I would like to watch you sleeping, which may not happen. I would like to watch you, sleeping. I would like to sleep with you, to enter your sleep as its smooth dark wave slides over my head. and walk with you through that lucent wavering forest of bluegreen leaves with its watery sun & three moons towards the cave where you must descend, towards your worst fear I would like to give you the silver branch, the small white flower, the one word that will protect you from the grief at the center of your dream, from the grief at the center. I would like to follow you up the long stairway again & become the boat that would row you back carefully, a flame in two cupped hands to where your body lies beside me, and you enter it as easily as beathing in I would like to be the air that inhabits you for a moment only. I would like to be that unnoticed & that necessary. -Margaret Atwood

MARRY ME BORIS!

I only hope I find a FH (Future husband) who is half the man that Boris is.