S.A.D

This is the view from my window around 1245. It looked like this from the moment I woke up until the sun started setting. And it will look like this again tomorrow, and the next day, and the next days, and on and on and on.

S.A.D. Music

My weather induced feelings make me suddenly relate to every Smiths song. FUN.

Mehhh

I volunteered all day today. The Youth Club workshop we were running completely fell apart when like only 3 people showed up. That being said, I think it really helped us to realize we need to be ready for anything. Also, it was really interesting talking to the kids and their youth club leader. Their perspectives on human rights were really interesting. Though, all forms of structure dissolved and we just ended up having an informal conversation, which I didn't think was so bad, though others in my group might have.

I feel so stressed this week and occasionally melancholic. Like I'm a complete life failure. I feel like my essay was shit, I have no work ethic and I'm concerned about my thesis. Oh and I'm being really stupid about finding a job. I just need to get on with it and apply for things. Wahhh. I honestly just want to crawl in a hole and eat chocolate. Or I want someone to hold me. But finding a large hole will probably be easier.

Take Note: This is exactly what I want to write my dissertation on.

Dislikes

- Procrastination

- Having work hanging over my head

- Winter

- Not having a current biological excuse for the carb binge I just had

- Poverty

- Not having a reading light

- When no one texts me

- The ease with which my room gets messy.

Hot Bitch of the Day

Julia Roberts, my new drunk hero:

Recent Things in my Life

1- I just turned in a terrible essay

2- There is currently a bit of blue in the sky and I'm hoping it'll give me a vitamin D boost. But, it also negatively makes me want to go outside instead of do work.

3- I deposited a check last week and thought it went through. It didn't. So I went into negatives. I cried about it. And now I can't pay bills/buy plane tickets for a Northern adventure until Thursday ARGH my life.

4- I drank an obscene amount of alcohol this weekend, well by my usually moderate standards. I obviously do not have money to be spending on such activities.

5- I went to Shoreditch for the first time, it was delicious.

6- This week is going to be so busy. Too tired.

7- I haven't gained weight, but I haven't lost any. Hopefully this will change (for the better) by Friday

8- I should be applying for jobs

9- I should be working on my thesis topic.

10- Instead I compiled this list. Sob

I didn't realize Jimmy Fallon did such a convincing Neil Young impression...