Wow. One of those days where I can count the people I like on one hand. Though, fear not American compatriots, I mean people I like in the British Isles. I feel deliriously stressed/ emotionally unstable. A really fun combo. I wandered Soho after class and surprisingly found myself at Yog, a frozen yogurt place. Bright spot, I ran into some people in my program I like so my numbers drastically increased.

Then I wandered back to my place and dark thoughts took over again. I miss my native land, a lot. Which I think is okay, since I'm American and that's where most of my good memories are. I've pretty much decided I'm going to return home in August and begin my working life in America. Maybe I'll come back here one day, I don't know.

I also stopped by Waitrose and am baking cookies tonight. I'm also baking an absurdly healthy dinner, so that makes cookies okay right? I hope it's not awkward when people walk into my kitchen and see me covered in food, baking while crying. AWKWARD.

I need a vacation. BADLY.

Song of the Day

I forgot how much I love this song. Also, I've never blogged about TV on the Radio and they're probs my fav band, so woo. I have oft imagined myself driving around in a convertible at night with a man listening to this song in late summer/early autumn (weird?).

Things I'm Into

Last night I watched the first episode of Sophie Dahl's cooking show, The Delicious Miss Dahl on BBC iplay.

1- I want to be her.

2- I want to be her friend.

3- Jamie Cullen in a luck man.

4- I also want to cook like her.

I think I'm going to try to expand my cooking repertoire to include meals, not just sweets. Shocking right?!?! Tonight I think I'm going to make couscous with sauteed spinach and broccoli with Sophie's sweet potato fries on the side. Let's see how that works out for me...

Link of the Mornin'

Thanks to my girl Mercedes over at mercedes is... for posting this amazing link that made my pre-work morning. I loollll'd.

YES!

Also, happy 500th post me! I hope you've all enjoyed this journey of blogging. xoxo

I've been listening to a lot of Bjork lately. Take from that what you will. Here's a great version of my current fav song by the Icelandic wonder.

Issues Right Now

Blah. Not sleeping last night really effed up my mood. Here is a run down:

-I spent too much money on dinner when I should have cooked. I'm basically living pay check to pay check and I have no idea when my job will end. Stress. Hopefully they'll give me some notice. I'm so afraid they'll tell me my project is done right before I go to Florida.

- Also expensive dinner was very unhealthy.

- I didn't go to a student even at the national gallery because I'm so tired I can't see straight.

- I'm looonnneeeellyyyyyyyyy.

- I think I'll definitely return to America after this year, but I'm afraid I'll end up back in Rochester working at the craft store from Hell. Plz let someone hire me.

- I want someone to looooveeeee me.

- Once again, I wish I could look 5 years in the future and see that my life is fine.

- My dissertation meeting left me feeling 1-dumb and 2-facing a mountain of things to do. Hopefully by my next meeting in June I'll be more together.

- I have so so so so so so much to do for everything.

- There's no one to hold me.

AGNST

BLAH

Bad thing:

I got basically no sleep last night, maybe 3 and a half hours if I'm lucky. It was awful. I was so tired but my mind wouldn't be reasoned with. WELL NOW IT'LL SUFFER TODAY!

Good thing:

I lost three pounds since Sunday's disasterous weigh in. I'm still 6 pounds away from where I was. But thankfully, 2 pounds away from the threshold that I like to be on the other side of.

TIRED