Apologies for yet another absence. I've had a friend visiting from Ammmmeeerrriiicaaa. It was a FANTASTIC WEEK. She's gone and now it's back to my fun filled solitary life.

START HAPPY DAY 2

I am happy that I somehow pulled off my 13 year old self's dream of going to England, "maybe studying abroad there," as I recall. I surpassed those dreams. So though there's lots my 13 year old self would be disappointed with, I think little Hayley would be happy that I somehow ended up living in England. I realized this on New Years Eve when I was the only American at a big party. I don't notice stuff like that anymore, but I guess it means my life would appear really cool to most. And it means I'm 23 and I've already done something with my life, I guess. Hopefully things keep happening!

This was just played on Radio 6, it's beautiful:

START HAPPY DAY 1

My New Years Guardian came with a poster that reads START HAPPY. So in honor of that, I'm going to write a reason I'm happy every morning (aka when I remember).

1: I'm glad I'm a girl who has a lot of friends, instead of a girl who has a lot of boyfriends and few girl friends. Boy friends are temporary, while I have friends I've known for years, and I'm sure I've gotten much more love from them than I ever would from relationships. Maybe. Unless I met my FH, but who does by the time they're 23? And then most marriages end in divorces. I digress, I'm happy to have such wonderful wonderful friends.

Hello Dream Husband and Child

My womb aches.

umm... this is amazing

And everyone dresses like that in GG.

Things I have gotten into lately

Wallander. The Swedish version. The BBC put two eps on iplayer (like Hulu just for the BBC) and I'm OBSESSED. I saw the Kenneth Branagh version on a plane once, and I've ordered more of his version through iplayer. It's just SO good (yea I'm three years late to this...). Though I question if the show is an accurate depiction of how dangerous Sweden actually is.

I digress. I knew Wallander was a show for me when in the first ep I saw all these characters kept saying: Do you know how much it hurts to love someone who will never love you? I found myself knodding furiously to myself, I do know! As do many people, obvs, but it's all about me, right? Well then the serial killer (who was suuupppperrrr messed up) said the exact same thing and I felt so glad that one of my New Years Resolutions is to not love/like any boyz who WILL NEVER LOVE ME. So I will never end up as a super deranged Swedish serial killer. Hallelujah.

This was the first book ending that ever wooowwwed me.

"Oh Jake," Brett said, "We could have had such a damned good time together."
Ahead was a mounted policeman in khaki directing traffic. He raised his baton. The car slowed suddenly, pressing Brett against me.
Yes," I said. "Isn't it pretty to think so?"
-Hemmingway (The Sun Also Rises)

I still imagine myself saying that to someone oneday, though I'm not as much a babe as Brett. "Isn't it pretty to think so." CLASSIC LINE